Posted by Morris in - 10.16.2008 6:58 PM
Im here in my photoshop class where Im already dine with a project others are snailing away at. Am I boasting? You better believe you knickers!

today was....lovely. I hardly use the word, but today is well deserving of it. Its sort of a weird lovely though. But beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Lovely.

I had on of those dreams last nite again. Where...well lets just say it was a"weird lovely" too.

I would have had a completely bad day had it not been for this awesome weather. It seemed as the day began that the weather and my dream cancelled out themselves. Though both lingered...the weather suppressed it all.

This all may seem vague and Im sorry.

I just dont understand how our own mids can betray us in such a way. As I thought more about it...I got to thinking of how it is that every other part of our body learns from its mistakes. Learns from negative reactionc from certain actions.

It only takes a human one scenerio to learn that fire can burn them.

So why is it that I think of you randomly. Sure there are things that remind me of you, but as soon as I have a quiet moment to myself or am trying to go to sleep. You're there. It never fails.
Oddly enough I can take the same fire scenerio and say that by burning myself I can feel something. It hurts but if I open my eyes...theres no where Id rather be.

"...yeah, you bleed judt to know your alive."

Im not too sure how to tranistion into this but, I noticing that love has become the horizon in my life. I can always see it, but oh how it seems I will never reach it. I speak of the romantic love of course. I know and see that ppl around me love me and though I wont say it back, its there.
but...I dont know. Its not that I see it undesireable, cz its not. I just find something wrong with eveyone I meet. Every girl that would show the slightest interest I can pondr on the idea for maybe .5 seconds before I throw it away. Its hard to settle for second best. To have something infront of you that you know isnt the pinnacle of what you could find. Pin point on a map. Drive to and see. Remember even. It is the taste of perfection that haunts me.....

....but I keep going back to this same house of ghost to sleep there. Its where I feel most at home~

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October 16, 2008 at 9:53 PM

I know how you feel.


October 17, 2008 at 2:09 AM

any girl would be lucky to have you...

October 17, 2008 at 4:48 PM

Perfection, say you?
Mmm, well, about that I guess all I can say is that there are no perfect people. you won't be able to fing the perfect girl, but only the one who will be perfect for you.

Good things come to those who wait, pengyou :]

October 17, 2008 at 6:22 PM

swing and a miss nelly. I dont think u understood....

October 18, 2008 at 10:02 AM

dude ur right on. lol. hey what kind of camera do u use for your videos? mine is a cheapy aiptek from circuit city which records in 720p HD. it's enough for what i want to use it for.