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Posted by Morris in - 8.04.2008 3:18 AM
I feel weird....

...sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my life. I mean, I dont need too much purpose to it. Just more to do and learn something everyday.

I know that I am the only one who can change this, just harder than it sounds. When I do get the nerve to get up and get out, Im faced with the halting wall that theres no one to hang out with or share my enthusiasm. Its hard to be the only artistic one at times. Well most of the time.

...and its not just that. It seems like all my friends, all the ppl I know are pairing off and webbing off into other lives. Its more than a fear now, cz it was already for a while, but after a while I know I'll left behind, and thats ok. I guess I was never one for the American dream. Surprisingly though, I am only now realizing that I was around so many who were...

To each his own I guess. Just feels like I wasted so much time, building these relationships and bonds only to come back to them from one day to the next and realize it was all a ruse, a hoax even.

I had it though. In San Antonio. What I had always looked for.

but...

I dunno. Its like a small part of me did want some of the dream. It brought me back to a place that I dont even recognize anymore.

Why is it that every spot you're not standing in looks better than where you are..............?


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The W
August 7, 2008 at 8:39 AM

feeling restless is pretty uncomfortable